Bittersweet

Tomorrow I start my new job.  It's been a great two months.  I have been there day in and day out with the kids getting to be there for them every day.  As I head back to work, I have mixed emotions. I am excited to be starting this new chapter in my life and sad too that I have to be away from the kids now during the day.

I will miss seeing their smiling faces throughout the day. I know that the first few days will be hard but I know that my God will bring me through it.

I will try not to cry tomorrow morning as I leave. I will miss spending those first moments when the babies wake up as we lay in the bed and play.  I will miss hanging out with the older two and taking them to all their activities. It's going to be hard to go from seeing them all day to just a few hours during the week, but I know that this is what I have to do.  With my new job comes the opportunity to possibly work from home which is something that I have prayed for over the years.   I won't be able to be around them like I am now but I would be close, in the next room - I could hear their laughter and run get a hug and kiss whenever I wanted.

What started out as a very scary time has ended up as a pure blessing.  I could have never imagined the road that God had for me when this year started. It was all supposed to go as I had it planned in my head, but His ways are not our ways.  His way is always better even when we don't understand.  We can only see right now, but He can see tomorrow.  And I take comfort in that.

Impossible (At least I am thinking it is)

I love to take pictures of my kids.  They are the joy of my life.  Taking pictures of one or two of them at a time is no problem, but taking a picture of all four and getting everyone to look at the camera at the same time with a smile is a very hard task. One that I have yet to get.  But to the dismay of my kids, I will continue to take their picture.  Here's the latest attempt.

And then I love Mags look on her face because she was tired of having her picture taken...

One Proud Mama

Today was awards day at Mag's school.  I am very proud of both of kids.  She received a medal for A/B Honor Roll and Jr. Beta Club certificate.

It is so hard to believe that she is going into the sixth grade next year.  Only 5 more years and she will be driving and in 7 years she will be starting college.  Where has the time gone? It just seems like yesterday that she was the cute little girl starting kindergarten.  Here she is with her brother when she was starting 2nd grade. Just doesn't seem possible.

WWE is in the house

The babies play real well together but Camie as a way of always picking on her brother.  Now mind you, he has 4 pounds on her but she picks on him so much that he starts to whine at times.

At times it's like a cat and mouse - she's the cat and he is the mouse.  He starts crawling and she sits back and waits.  When he is away from her, she babbles and then crawls to him and proceeds to jump on top of him.  It is so funny to watch.

She rules the roost when it comes to them.

Baby Dedication Day

On Mother's Day, our church had baby dedication day.  Since we were dedicating the babies, JC and I thought it would be great to dedicate to raise the older kids in a Christian home.

(Josh is very nervous in front of crowds, so 

he stood behind me the entire time)

It is a great responsibility that God has placed on us as parents. We are raising four kids and wanted to commit before the Lord to bring them in the Lord. It's not a job that is to be taken lightly.  It's actually a little overwhelming at times.

I feel humbled every time I look at my kids.  I don't deserve them but God has blessed me with them.  I am far from perfect and make mistakes when raising them but I try to learn from them and do better the next time.

And this is the first picture of all six of us together. I wish it was better but at least I have one now of all of us.

Getting so big

Tonight we put away the baby tub. The babies are sitting in the tub now like big kids. They love being able to move around which is good but now they are a handfull. They take everything down around them and pull up the plug. Time sure is flying by.




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A little Laughter on a Cloudy Day

Thought I would brighten your day on this cloudy day much like he brightens mine everyday.

Enjoying the pool

The babies got a little pool to splash around in.  We tried it out yesterday and they loved it.

It was a little small but will do until I can find one that I really want to get them.  The love taking a bath and being outside so this was perfect for them.

Then daddy started cutting grass and the attention went from the pool to the lawnmower.

Now we have to get them floats for the big pool so they can splash around this summer. I love summer time!

Peek - a Boo

He was playing Peek-a-Boo with me more until I got the camera out but you will get the idea.

Stand Up!

Yesterday as I was feeding my baby boy and my oldest was folding clothes, I just happen to look over at Camie who was playing in the laundry basket. To my amazement she was standing.

We sat her back down and watch as she stood up again.  Here's a little video of her standing.



It's amazing how fast they are growing. What really amazes me is watching them reach milestones at different times and just how different they are.

What a year!

This year so far has felt like one big long trial.  In January my daddy went in to have a simple surgery and then got very sick and passed away in February.  While dealing with all of that, I lost my job at the end of March.  So  I have been home since then.  Scared and at times worried, I am reminded of the fact that God is in control and can see the end of trials that we have been through.  I can only see right now and the "what ifs" keeping coming up in my head.  But what was meant for bad had turned into a blessing.  I am reminded everyday of my daddy when I watch my kids and live my life.  I have had extra time with my kids and family that I normally would not have had.  I have seen firsts with the babies that I would have normally missed - crawling and standing up. I have been there more for the older two and for their events.

I am waiting on God to show me what He wants for me next.  I have had interviews with two different companies in the last week and either one would be a great fit for our family.  I still have my good days and bad when dealing with everything and who wouldn't.  But I know that God will be glorified in this and isn't that what life is all about anyway.  It's not about us - it's all about Him.