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Saturday, February 26, 2011

How Quickly Things Can Change

After the month we have had I have come to realize even more how blesses we are. As I sat in the ER with Big Man, my heart broke. So many kids were there. The kid sharing the room with us came in on an ambulance because he had some seizures. I just kissed Big Man and Little Mama (she rode down with me so she could watch him). Then as we waited more for the bed in the Special Care Unit to open up, they had to move us because a full arrest was on the way. That just stopped me in my tracks. Here I was holding my baby boy while there was a mama and daddy panicking because they could possibly be losing theirs. I just held him tight and prayed.

Why is that it takes things like this for us to remind ourselves just how precious and fragile life is. So often we take things for granted and forget how quickly life can change. One minute you are planning your day and the next minute you're driving to Children's.

Here lately we have been so busy with life and activities that we haven't been able to spend quality time together. I want more nights like Friday night where we sit and watch tv, order in and play games. No agenda - no set plans - just spending time with each other. I want to slow down and take in every precious moment I have with my family, Hubs and the kids because in an instant everything can change.

Another Trip to Children's

Yes it's our second trip this month. Two weeks ago I was here with our youngest daughter, Sweet Pea. She had RSV and had to stay two nights. Her trip was hard because it was also the same week that my daddy passed away. When they had to out oxygen on her I thought I was going to lose it. We actually walked out of the hospital at the exact time 1 year ago that my daddy passed away. I know that he was watching over us.

Now I am here with her twin brother. He is the most curious child I think out of the four. He is into everything. This morning as the Hubs was getting ready for work, he laid out his blood pressure pill. The twins were playing when our oldest noticed that he had spit up some in the floor. It was then that we discovered what he had done. He chewed up the pill and we were no sure how much he had in him. Poison control told us to bring him in so we did. They have him on a heart monitor and are watching him over night. He has done so good. He hasn't been that fussy and went to sleep at his normal bedtime.

I am so thankful for the Children's Hospital we have here. The nurses and doctors are amazing and so good. It will be hard to leave his bedside soon, but I praise God he is in good hands.



Thursday, February 24, 2011

A Not So Happy Ending

A day that started out with such high hopes and dreams, ended with a broken heart and tears. To an 11 year old girl making cheerleader was everything. One day I know she will look back and see that it wasn't the end of the world, but for a short time the pain and disappointment is oh so real.

It has been a long week. Tonight when I saw her sweet face my heart just broke. The pain on her face was very real. I hugged her for just a second until she looked at me and said that she just wanted to leave. This is the hardest part of being a mom. Every bone in my body wished I could take all this away and make things the way she wanted but I couldn't. It was one of the many hard spots in life my precious child will endure.

As she cried, I cried with her at times. But I reminded her that God has something planned for her this year. He has something He for her that cheer would be in the way of. I believe that nothing in this world happens by chance. Everything flows through God's hands and everything has a place in His hands. So I truly believe God has something in mind for my daughter. What that is I don't know, but He does. She will rise from this a stronger young lady from this. But tonight it hurts and I hurt with her and for her.