Two Years Ago

Today two years ago as I sat in the waiting room outside the ICU unit at the hospital I knew my worst nightmare was about to begin. I knew that I would be saying goodbye or see you later alligator to my hero. There would be no more phone calls when the weather was bad, no more finding candy wrappers laying where ever he decided to put them, no more hugs, no more kisses, no more hearing him tell me that he loved me, no more holding that hand of his that had held me when I needed him. I had just prayed a few days before that day that if God was ready for him to come home that I trusted Him with His plan for our lives. See learning to trust God was something that he had shown me through his life and taught me that life was much easier when you trust God. I didn't like the plan but I knew that with everything God has a purpose. It was a rainy day just like it is today. We had spent the night in the waiting room because he was just not doing well. His best friend had stayed with us too. Life was passing before my eyes and I was numb.

At 5 that afternoon, he went to be with the Lord. When he did, the sun finally came out at that very moment. I won't ever forget looking out the window to see the sunshine. It was God saying "He's' home. He doesn't hurt anymore. Don't worry I have this and I will take care of you." I still miss him but I am so thankful I have the hope and the promise I will see him again one day. When it is my time to go home to be with God, he will be there waiting on me and will once again wrap his loving arms around me. What a glorious day that will be when I can see my Lord face to face and be with my Daddy again. If it were not for the peace and assurance that only God can give to His children, I don't know how my family and I would have ever made it that day and the days to follow.

It is my prayer that if you are reading this and you don't have that peace and relationship that I have with God that you will seek Him while He can be found. It says in the Bible "For God so loved the world that He gave His only beloved Son that whosoever would believe in Him would not perish but have everlasting life." Without Him, life is so much harder and has no hope. I pray that today you will believe in Him just like my Daddy and I did and that you will have a new life in Him that only God can give.

I love you Daddy.